Why is it always my turn?

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When I was single, I remember coming home from work after incredibly long days, exhausted, ready to just veg. I’d arrive home, drag myself out of the car, open my apartment door … and sigh.

Yep, there was my home, EXACTLY as I had left it: Papers on the table, dishes in the sink, not a whiff of a freshly made dinner.

“Ugh,” I’d think. “Why is it always my turn to do EVERYTHING?”

That’s how entrepreneurship can feel.

On certain days, that’s empowering. You get to bring your dreams to fruition, in precisely the form you want them to take. How great is that?!?!?

And then there are those other days, when it feels like the world is pressing down on you, and it’s all so overwhelming.

Setting up an accounting system? That’s on you. Updating a website? You again. Getting your actual work done? Yep, still you.

At full strength, motherbility will relieve you of a lot of your business-running burden. But we’re not there yet.

And today is my turn to have one of those days.

As I write this, it is 4:54 a.m., and I’ve been awake for two hours. Insomnia is nothing new to me, and usually it’s fine. I know how to deal. But this is a sore throat-, runny nose-, throbbing head-fueled insomnia, and I’m wrecked.

Me this morning — tired, unshowered, sick … but working. (The featured photo up above is me feeling much better, on a hiking date with my lovely husband.)

Entrepreneurs and moms, though, don’t get to be wrecked.

Yes, we can cut ourselves some slack: There will be fewer posts this week than normal, for example, and when my kids on Monday asked if they could have school lunch, I silently thanked God for the lunch-packing reprieve.

Still, reality keeps truckin’ along, and the reality is there’s a freakin’ lot to do.

We’re leaving for vacation in a few days. Motherbility, though, doesn’t take a break. You know how vacation is — in theory, it’s a time to leave work behind. In reality, it’s a time to get double the work done before you go so you meet all your responsibilities but can still ignore (most) everything work-related for a few days.

I have five interviews stacked on my mini-recorder, ready to transcribe, two half-written blog posts to complete, and finishing touches to make on my plan for the upcoming month — all so that I can take a vacation, be completely present with my family, return ready to tackle February with gusto, and motherbility can keep tooling along throughout it all.

I have 36 hours to complete 10 days’ worth of work.

So, I drag my insomnia-addled brain (and the rest of me), out of bed. And I lean on two things:

God –“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me,” says Philippians 4:13;

And Tom Hanks — “It’s supposed to be hard. If it wasn’t hard, everyone would do it. The hard is what makes it great.”

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